Why i love sucking cock

Master asked me to write this a little while ago. He wanted to know why i loved sucking cock.

            i am a cock sucking whore.  i love to suck cock. It’s more than just a want.  It’s a need.  i need to have a cock in my mouth.  But not just any cock, Master, i need Your cock.  Your cock is the cock that i want in my mouth; the cock that i desire above all else.  i need to be on my knees in front of You offering You the use of my mouth.  As Your whore, bringing You pleasure brings me pleasure.  i am addicted to the power that it has over me…all You have to do is mention Your cock and i am instantly wet and desiring to please You. 

            i want nothing more than to worship Your cock.  i desire to spend my time, admiring the beauty and power in its hardness, the juxtaposition of soft skin and hard steel.  i want to kiss the tip and taste Your salty precum. i want to lick and taste Your balls, run my tongue up the underside of Your shaft, and suck the tip of Your cock into my mouth.  i want to take You into my mouth, taste You, and enjoy the feeling of You filling me.

            i love the feeling of every ridge and every vein as i run my tongue over and around Your cock.  i love the way i feel when the bulbous head of Your cock hits the back of my throat, the panicky feeling i get when i can’t breathe, the rush of endorphins from knowing that You are in control.  i need this.  i need you to fuck my mouth, to take over and use me, to take Your pleasure.  To give myself to You as a vessel for Your cock.  This wonderful part of Your body that i must touch, taste and savor whenever possible.  i need it.

            And then, when You cum…i didn’t always enjoy this, but i do now.  Now i must have Your cum.  I must taste it’s saltiness, and swallow, and know that i have succeeded in pleasing my Master.  Then i know that my life has purpose, i am doing what i am meant to do, i am serving my Master’s cock.  i love this, i love my Master’s cock.  i love serving my Master’s cock.  At any time of the day and in anyways, i will serve my Master and His cock, but my favorite way to worship…is to suck His cock.

scarlet….cock sucking whore

Long Distance submission

            i am definitely not into this long distance separation right now.   On the one hand, i feel like these months apart are giving us time to figure out exactly what our D/s relationship will be, how to incorporate it into our lives, what my limits will be, etc.  Then, i also have plenty of time to read, learn, research, and train so that by the time my Master returns, i will be able to serve Him and be the cock whore that He desires.  But, fuck, i miss Him so very much.

            Now that i know this is what i want, i want Him here so that i can serve Him.  i want to be on my knees in front of Him worshipping His cock.  God, i love His cock.  i want Him to bend me over His knees and paddle my bare ass (i’m discovering that i’m very turned on by this).  i just want to be fucked and used seven ways to Sunday.

            my communication with Master, while he is gone, is stilted by network content filters and time constraints.  We have to truncate our conversations and talk in code to discuss my training.  He says He worries that this is just talk and that when He gets home; i will have changed my mind about submission.  i won’t.  i know i won’t.   This is what i want.  i’m training and teaching myself, on my own, the ins and outs of being submissive and learning the skills He wants for His cock whore.

            Long distance sucks…i miss my Master.

Introducing scarlet

            i am a married woman in my thirties with kids.  i am college educated and i have a career.  i love my husband very much.  We have been together for years.  But something was missing from our relationship and it was causing us problems both in and out of the bedroom.

            i wanted to be dominated, i wanted to submit, but hadn’t explained this to my husband.  Eventually after a fight, i finally blurted out some of what i needed.  What followed, with some trial and error, was some of the best sex of our relationship and some frustration too.  It wasn’t enough.

            My husband’s job keeps him away from us for long periods of time and during these periods we talk.  And talk.  And we argue about things that drive us nuts.  And then we try to fix things.  What else is there to do?  During this time, we started discussing the turn our sexual relationship had taken and how much more into D/s we wanted to go.

            Introducing scarlet.  i am scarlet.  My Master has renamed me.  Because i am still a wife and a mother, we felt that we needed a way to make it clear when i needed to submit and give up my role as wife as partner as equal and submit.  It’s a challenge to balance my roles, to be a mom and a wife and a submissive and to switch in and out of those roles seamlessly.  It’s a challenge to remember, after half a dozen years of being “the boss”, that i am no longer in charge always and to remember to speak in obedience and respect and to hold my tongue when i’m annoyed.

            i think, most of all, that i’m enjoying the journey.  i am enjoying falling in love with my husband all over again…learning that this man, who i spent years assuming was far too vanilla when it came to sex, has a mind that matches and maybe exceeds my deviance.  i am enjoying learning how to submit, how to please Him as my Master, and developing this D/s relationship into something that is far stronger than our marriage ever was.