Showing posts with label pussy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pussy. Show all posts

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Orgasm-Induced Haze

So how did i celebrate New Years?  Out Partying? No.  Hanging out with friends? No.  Staying in with my kids?  Well sort of, but i sent them to bed before midnight.

i ushered in 2014 training, pushing myself…in what Master referred to as an “orgasm-induced haze”.  Sounds nice, huh? Yeah, i thought so too.

My instructions…
you will be very tired at the end of this, but it’s intended to push you some.  I expect full involvement from beginning to end.  First... your mindset for the day needs to be that of a sloppy cunt that just needs to be filled and fucked and cum by any means.  I am not putting time limits on anything except the final task. I expect you to show your whorish need and desire through out and push yourself through each task. The first task will be the g-spotter attachment & the Magic Wand until you cum with the small stainless steel butt plug in.  Then leave butt plug in and lay down with Dirk until you cum.  Of course letting the sloppy whore out while doing so. Then you will use another attachment with the Magic Wand that isn’t the nub until you cum. This is your choice. Then you remove the butt plug, and ride dirk on the Liberator until you cum.  Then.... the grand finale!  Do you remember when I was on the phone while in the club and had you in closet, cumming over and over? Similar thing here... the closeout is with the nub, at the setting that makes you cum quickest, and I want you to keep going and cumming for 12-15 minutes. I want you to push yourself to the edge of sanity!

Holy shit!  That’s a lot of fucking orgasms!

i spent the day dealing with kids and household stuff, but with the night’s training in the back of my mind…partly excited about it and partly terrified.  Excited to play with the Magic Wand some more.  Excited to play with Dirk again. God that name cracks me up.  This is why we haven’t named Master’s cock.  Terrified at trying to figure out the logistics of riding a 12” cock on my Liberator Bonbon with bad knees.  Terrified at the idea of 12-15 minutes of continuous orgasms.

i had wanted to be mid-session when midnight hit…ringing in the new year with orgasms.  However, i got distracted by the Chick-fil-a Bowl  Seriously, Duke, how could you have lost that game?!  So instead i started right at midnight.

My pussy was already wet as i laid back on the bed and spread my legs, butt plug already inserted into my ass.  i picked up the Magic Wand with the g-spotter attachment ready to go.  The variable speed control lay on the bed near my head waiting for me as i pushed the attachment into me.  i turned the wand on, low speed, gradually turning the dial up, not wanting to go too high to soon.  The nub pulses inside me and the outer piece vibrates along my clit and against the base of the butt plug.  As i slowly turn the vibrations up, they spread through my pelvic region.  i pinch my nipples.  my back arches off the bed and i bite my knuckles, squeezing my eyes closed as the intensity builds.  i remember this from the night before; my body starts to tense up in preparation.  i feel the muscles of my pussy contract in and then explode out in another intense orgasm that seems to just shoot out my body, down my legs and out my toes.  i finally remember how to breathe when it subsides.  i turn the wand off and remove it.

i reach for Dirk, the walls of my pussy still spassy from my orgasm.  i rub the head along my wet clit, but the contractions of my pussy and my shaking legs make it impossible to slide the massive cock in.  i grab the lube to make it easier.  Slowly i slide the large dildo inside me, feeling it stretch me wider.  Fucking my pussy with 12” of cock until i cum again.

2 awesome orgasms down.  Back to the Magic Wand, this time with the 1” curved attachment.  Slide it inside me and turn the speed up to medium.  i angle the curved tip forward so that it vibrates against my g-spot.  Doesn’t take long before i’m right there on the edge again.  But my right arm is starting to go numb from the vibrations so i switch hands…and i lose my spot!  Damn it!  Takes another minute or two to find it again.  Then 2 awesome orgasms becomes 3!

When i go to stand, my legs are wobbly.  My thigh muscles are still vibrating.  i move the camera and get out the liberator bonbon.  Slide the base of the dildo into cushion and lube it up before i lower myself over it.  (There is no graceful way to do this.  i don’t watch my own videos, but i’m sure i look really klutzy).  With a cock this large, my ass doesn’t touch the cushion.  i slowly raise and lower myself, fucking myself.  i want to keep going, to get myself off, but my knees can only take about 5 minutes after all the muscle spasms from the wand…oh the wand, shit, not done yet.

i take a few minutes of a break to take this lovely shot at Master’s request…


…then attach the Spot Tip to the wand.  i lay back down on the bed.  i hold the vibrating tip against my clit.  The first intense orgasm comes very quickly.  My legs shake.  i move the tip a little to catch my breath.  It’s a short break as i move the top around on my clit and a second orgasm overtakes me.  It’s only been a few minutes.  How am i going to last 10 more minutes?  Not sure how much more i can take.

Apparently quite a bit more, though i lost count.  i also lost control of my legs and had to hook my ankles together to keep them from shaking all over the bed.  My eyes might have rolled back into my head at some point too.  i felt like my orgasms were being ripped from my body, one right after another.  The last several were almost painful.  My legs and lower back so sore from the way my body tenses up with each one.  My eyes tearing up, wanting to beg for it to stop, but fuck, who was there to beg to?  i’m doing this to myself!


Such a huge relief when the time period was up.  i couldn’t even imagine not being in control of the wand and not having the ability to move it away from my clit.  My entire body was sore the whole next day.

Sunday, December 22, 2013

You’ve been a bad bad girl

Sometimes, i feel like every time i get a handle on something, the rug gets yanked out from under me and i realize that i don’t have a handle on anything.  Then my mouth or my attitude or something trips me up and get my ass…or my pussy in trouble.  This time it was motivation and desire to be submission, to put forth the effort, to want to give more than the bare minimum of give a shit.  It really wasn’t that i didn’t care, just that i had allowed my priorities to keep shifting so that Master got a smaller and smaller piece.  And then wanted to keep whining.  Bring on the attitude adjustment!

And so this was how we started my vacation…

250 strikes to pussy, ass, and nipples with various implements.
Then take out the rabbit vibrator.  I want you to get right to the ragged edge of cm, then stop. I want you to do this 3x. Then stop completely. Then explain to me why it is important that you stay motivated in your role, and dedicated to your tasks, and how you plan to improve.

Now the pain slut in me would usually enjoy this first part.  In fact, i was really enjoying the first 25 to my pussy with a paddle.  Then 10 to my nipples, then 15 to my pussy.  (Shh, it’s a type A thing).  i started to get very wet and i wanted to cum badly.  So i rolled over and delivered 25 to each ass cheek (for some reason i can beat my ass a whole lot harder than i can my pussy, i think it’s motion…maybe it’s the padding, lol).

Rinse, recycle, and repeat for another 100.  This time while i was torturing my pussy, i thought for sure that i might cum.  i couldn’t believe it.  All those times that i’d tried to cum while beating myself and here i am trying NOT to cum and i’m on the edge.  Figures. 

i finished up the last 50 then grabbed the vibrator and went to work.  Damn rabbit vibrators.  Why must they be so good?  Master’s instructions were to take myself to the ragged edge, as far as i could go without actually cumming.

Each time didn’t take more than a couple of minutes.   i pushed myself as far as i could go, right to edge.  By the time i stopped for the 2nd one, my head started to pound from the pressure and my back started to hurt from tensing up to hold my orgasms at bay.  It was such a relief to be done that i was ok with not cumming.

There was a caveat to my instructions, to address part of the motivation issue.  As i record these sessions, Master has noticed something missing from them.  So i needed to step it up and make sure that i brought out the slut and talked really dirty so that he could how much i wanted to please Him.  i made sure the entire time i was bringing myself to the edge that i showed Him the slut that He wants to see, to show Him the desire that i have to serve Him.

Friday, November 22, 2013

The Pain Slut...beginnings

This post has taken me forever to write.  Not entirely sure why but i’ve been procrastinating it something fierce.  Maybe it’s because it involves me eating my own words. i actually tried to go find the exact words that needed to be eaten, but they’re buried in 300k+ Facebook messages. i think it went something like this…

i’m not interested in the pain aspect of this.  i like the bondage and the breath play and the service, and i’m ok with pain for pleasure.  But i’m don’t want to be spanked or beaten repeatedly or super hard, it’s not a turn on for me.

Be careful…your words will come back to haunt you.

It started with a comment that i made while writing about my new nipple piercings.  i said that i was a little disappointed that it hadn’t hurt more.  Master decided that we needed to explore this.  He knew.  They always do.

i was lying on a blanket on our living room floor.  my legs are spread, knees bent.  my cell phone was on the floor next to me, Master’s voice reaching out to me, giving me instructions.  Our video camera recorded my training session for Master to view later.

Massage your pussy, the outside, around your lips. Slow, circular motions.  Breathe in and out, deeply, slowly.

i comply, staring up at the ceiling fan above me turning slowly, the circulated air cooling my bare flesh.  Goosebumps form on my arms and legs.  Master’s voice is low and soothing.
We’re going to be working on a scale of 1-10, scarlet.  1 being very light and 10 being as hard as you can.  Take Trixie (our leather paddle) and give me 5 smacks on your pussy at a 3.  Then go back to massaging.
Just the sound of His voice has me wet.  i take Trixie in my right hand.  One. Two. Three. Four.  Five.  Each light smack makes my legs tremble.  i thank Master after i have finished and massage while i wait for His instructions.
Do you want more? Are You fucking kidding me?  Of course, i want more.  That was barely anything.  i just thought that.  i answered Him with an appropriate Yes Master.
10 smacks on your pussy at a 4, breathe in and smack yourself as your breathe out.   i don’t know if you’ve ever had to self-punish before, but there’s a lot going on right here.  i had to focus on my breathing.  Then hitting myself in the right spot at the right strength, and only as i was breathing out.  Yeah, that didn’t work very well.
Do you want more?  Yes Master, i want more! At this point, i’m getting annoyed at this slow pace.  i’m extremely turned on but i’m not progressing.  But i’m not in control of this training experience and i must be patient.  Though Master senses my frustration in my voice.


Alright my little pain slut, 15 at a 5, faster pace.
As the count (in sets of 10 and 15) and the intensity (up to 7 and 8) and the pace increase, so did my excitement.  My pussy was so wet, my legs shaking, i felt on the edge of coming the entire time.  Harder, faster, stronger…eventually getting the hang of breathing out as i smacked my pussy with the leather paddle.  Even with being able to brace myself, knowing when each smack was coming, i still jumped a little at each one.  But with the sharp pain came the most intense feelings of excitement and pleasure.  i wanted more, i wanted harder.  Though there was only so hard that i was going to be able to smack myself.  Listening to Master’s voice direct me just made me long for Him to be there in the room, taking over.
Yet the entire time my brain is spinning and i’m struggling to grasp what i’ve gotten myself into.  The inner struggle begins.  My pussy loves this!  My brain is screaming fuck no!  You don’t want this.  You never wanted this.  Why are you enjoying this?  What is wrong with you? 
i don’t really think anything is wrong with me, just that my desires and wants are evolving as my submission evolves.  What i do know is that since that first training day, my fantasies and my desires have taken a darker turn down a path that i never imagined that i would want.   i am learning to embrace this new part of my submission…becoming His pain slut. 
More to come…