After
finding the tattoo studio closed up early on Sunday, i rescheduled for Tuesday
according to the piercer’s schedule i asked for. Thankfully, i double-checked before i drove
back down there. No, she’s not working today,
she’s working Thursday. Did you
know that Tuesday and Thursday are NOT the same days? Thursday, being Halloween, wasn’t an option so
i rescheduled (AGAIN!) for Friday.
Really, it should not be this hard to pierce holes in my body.
Pain
is relative to the person experiencing it.
Not of my other piercings have really hurt that much. Frankly, i’ve enjoyed all of the experiences. The thought of getting my nipples done did
have me a little worried. All this extra
waiting wasn’t very helpful either. Then
for some reason, on the way down there, i convinced myself that it was going to
hurt like hell. Not sure why.
Get there, do my
paperwork, pay my money (struck by the odd thought that it cost less to do my
nipples than my ears – Halloween special, but still). As we walk back, i’m aware that there’s a guy
getting some work done just outside of the room we’re in. Fuck,
now i’ve got to try not to scream so i don’t embarrass myself. Lie down, pull my shirt up, bra too. Just laying there, making small talk while my
piercer gets ready.
She clamps my left
nipple.
This is going to fucking hurt.
Breathe
in. One, two… i feel the needle
go through. i’m not into watching this
process.
Breathe
out. i look down. Sure enough there’s a needle through my
nipple.
That’s it?
She laughs.
Breathe
in. i feel the needle come out
and the barbell go through.
Done. There’s a barbell through my nipple! Why does it hurt more when the jewelry goes
in? We repeat the process with my right
nipple.
As we were finishing
up, i hear this…I think you’re the calmest person I’ve ever had back here. She said the same thing when i was getting my
ears done. (i had messaged Master the
entire time.) i guess my pain tolerance
is pretty high. Scale of 1 to 10…this
was only about a 3. Clothespins hurt
more. i responded…
i’m kinda disappointed it didn’t hurt more.
What. The. Fuck.
Is. Wrong. With. Me?! i get being happy that it didn’t hurt that
much. But disappointed? There really something wrong with my thinking
on this. More and more, i think i’m
finding that i like pain a little too much.
But that’s a post for another day.
In the meantime, i’m going to enjoy my new piercings as they are healing
very well…a little tender when touched directly, but otherwise no pain.
Master
requested before and after pictures. And
He requested that they be included as part of this post, another step in
pushing this limit, testing me, pushing me to confront my fears regarding
posting images of my body online. It
made Him very happy to see the picture that i posted and He would like to see
more, and more revealing. i am not the
only one who is getting test here though.
He is unsure of how He will feel when they are actually posted…this is a
first for Him too.
So…scarlet’s nipples before…
And now…
Yeah! Congrats...they look amazing! And congrats on posting the picture:)
ReplyDeletewow! they do look great. you should be proud of yourself and the boundary you pushed. ...I am proud of you.
ReplyDeleteThanks to both of you! i love them and wish i had gotten them sooner. The picture i am getting used to. Still hits me every time i see it that it is publicly displayed...a complete departure from my locked down FB settings (and I'm fully clothed!). Master is pushing quite a few boundaries at the moment. Today's instructions have my stomach in knots. ugh. And more thanks to both of you because reading your blogs have helped me tremendously in the past couple weeks.
ReplyDeletenot sure how mine has helped, but glad it is.
ReplyDeleteI hope that whatever he has you do today goes well. Can't wait to hear about it:)
ReplyDeleteDon't know if it helps at all but my stomach still gets in knots when he is pushing my boundaries. It does get easieronce you realize that even though you are nervous, you will get through it and all is still fine!